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Snapshots In My Time...Of My Time.....Hauntings.

Great story on NPR about the job situation:  All the news is bad right now!

NPR on Jobs

Motivation

Motivation seems to be lacking in my right about now. Not sure why....maybe it has been the months of feeling not so good. I think when you get out of a stressful situation you might not be aware of the stress you were under until it is all over. Then you feel it, get sick and have to get over it.

When I left my job in April, I was under a lot of stress. From work. Having a terrible boss will do that. He was controlling and very manipulative. He was beyond words and every single employee who has left AFTER me has told me the exact same thing..without me even broaching the subject. He goes through a lot of employees. The turnover rate is extreme but he does not care. He just chalks it up to numbers...it's all a numbers game to him to find good people. He just had not found them yet.

When I left I was having irritable bowel problems. That is something I developed due to stress some years ago. I only have a flair up when I am stressed. It takes a long time to get it under control. It is now.

Mentally I feel so much better. I never knew what a relief it was not to go to work there. I could feel the relief that first week of not having him to deal with. If the relief is coming off one in waves, that was a clue I should have left there long before that!

When I look back that has been my problem I stay in bad places too long wanting them to get better. Hoping they will get better and they never do. I am an optimist. I see the good in most things and people, even if small and hold on to that. Against my better judgement.

So now I am not motivated. I want a great position, with great coworkers. I know that position has to be out there. For now, I seek. Waiting for the perfect one. I know there is a plan for my life but right now I just do not know what that is. I have always had a plan and a direction. And knew where I was going.

For the first time now, I feel adrift. Adrift on the sea of life, with a paddle but no map. With time I will find my way. With time I will find my way.

Between a Hard Place and a Hard Place

Snapshots In My Time...Of My Time.....Hauntings. I have been working at a place for the last 4 years. Not a good place but it is /was a job. Based on sales and at the whim of the economy. Now in the last week it has been restructured and just about phased out. I no longr go to the office exccept for 2 days and just for a few hours. I am essentially gone. Instead of an hourly pay that was semi regular along with bonuses, it is just pay based on commission. Not so good. Dire is my situation now. I am looking for work and have had a few interviews but it is scary...how are these April bills going to get paid. Life is hard right now. Sometimes I do feel like giving up...if it was just me....maybe so. But. Kids. You have to keep going for them. So plod on I will. Hope a great job will materialize very soon!