The Doldrums

Snapshots In My Time...
Of My Time.....Hauntings.

I am down in the dumps. I am not sure why. This week was a very busy week at work. It is all so tiresome...work is. Plus it seems I do not have one minute for myself. It seems that all my time belongs to others. I do not get enough sleep and when I am awake, there seems no time for me. I am finding that I must begin to say "NO!" I am one who finds it very hard to say no, so many times I over extend myself. I feel like that now. Tomorrow I agreed to do some charity work at church, then I have to go to my parents and I am supposed to take part of the dinner. Why did I say I would do that?

I have to get ready for sunday school on sunday...read the lesson and answer questions and then attend a christmas party sunay afternoon. Then I get back in the hampster wheel called work and run and run and run some more. Monday night is bible study. This is the holiday season adn I must say this has been the busiest one I have had in about 8 years.

I always longed for more people in my life, places to go, more social outlets. I have that and why am I complaining? I long for the solitude I had before...just for a day or two. That is all. Just for a day. Next weekend it is an out of town Christmas party. And during the week nights this week I have bible study on Wednesday. There is not time.

I got some good advice on yesterday. Someone tole me to, just go to bed. Turn off the tv. lights, no reading, just go to bed. I did that for 2 nights this week and I felt a lot different the next day. The sleep deprevation was not so bad. I can still fall asleep if I close my eyes for about 5 minutes, but the extreme exhaustion is not as bad. I plan to do that. got to be and to somehow fit in a nap during the day. I am getting older. I need it. I need to just go to bed.